Khaleegi – another video downloaded!

It’s taking me awhile (what an understatement!) but one by one I’m getting these dances onto the website for the enjoyment of all.  Look under the “Galleria” tab to see them all! Here is the women’s Gulf dance that I choreographed for the show “Rockin’ the Casbah” last year. This is me with Saba Middle Eastern Dance Ensemble.  It was an awful lot of fun to teach and to perform, and I hope you all enjoy watchin it as much as we did dancing it!

To Dance…that is the question

A dance newsletter came into my inbox this afternoon, and at the end there was a poll about dance names. I answered the questionnaire, which asked how you got your dance name (given by a teacher, a name reference, made it up, etc). I checked the box next to “I dance under my own name.” I dance under my own name because dance wasn’t isn’t about what I do, it’s about who I was am. I used to be am most honestly myself when I’m dancing, and have often said that if you want to know who I am, you must watch me dance.

Which is why I don’t have a dance name.

Which made me think again about why I don’t dance lately.

If I can’t dance anymore, is it because I no longer know who I am? Has the dance truly left me?

I just don’t accept that something that has been at the heart and soul of who I am could totally disappear from me like that. I think back to last winter and spring and the feelings of devastation and grief and loss-of-self that accompanied the depression. I think back to what was happening in my life leading up to that. I see how I could have tangled the dance up in my mind and began to associate it with fear and anxiety.

On the positive side, I also know that my creative spirit did not die…it simply shifted places and has been expressing itself in other ways. That’s how I know the dance isn’t dead. It didn’t die, it’s quilting!

But I hate it that depression has created this dead space inside of me where joy used to reside. I want that hole to go away forever! I want joy back. I want to dance again. Not to teach (not right away)…just to dance. Just for myself, because I don’t feel complete without it, even though it causes me anxiety and fear right now.

And so I have decided to do something about it.
I’m going to give myself a shot of immersion therapy.

The other day an offer to take an on-line dance class with Nadira Jamal arrived in my in-box. Instead of deleting without opening as I have been doing with all dance-related stuff, I read it. then, on a total impulse, I signed up for it.

I am putting dance into my path where I will stumble upon it everyday when the next lesson arrives in my inbox, with no expectations other than that I will read each exercise and be open to trying.

Instead of being a teacher, I will be a student.

I have no expectations of myself on a professional level …instead, I give myself permission to relax and let it happen. And if it scares me, I will breathe deeply, set it aside and look at it again the next day.

The course is about improvisation and the American Cabaret multi-part show style. Yes, this is stuff I’m familiar with, but it’s also an area that I always wanted a good refresher in. Am Cab, with its Turkish influence, requires an exuberance of spirit that is big and bold and unrestrained in a flamboyant way that Egyptian Classical is not. So it’s a form of bellydance that doesn’t come naturally to me – that’s largely unexplored by me. This is good. This is how I hope to reconnect with my dancing body.

As a dance geek, I know that, above all else, there is never anything that cannot be built onto, added into, enriched, re-sized, refreshed, re-examined or re-learned. When one stops learning and seeking knowledge from others, one ceases to grow.

Wish me well – cheers to growth, health and continued recovery!

A Home to Retire to!

Kelly’s dream has always been to retire at 55. We never really thought it could happen, but we used to talk about it a lot.  We’d talk about where we would live, what we would do. It was a fun subject to fantasize over. Then one day a couple of months ago we stopped dreaming and decided to take action. We needed information, so we started by investigating house prices in some of the areas we were interested in living, getting a real estate appraisal on our house and cabin, and making an appointment with our financial advisor. 

I started window shopping for homes in Penticton, Kelowna,  Vernon and Salmon Arm. We were shocked at the low prices in the Okanagan and Shuswap compared to Whitehorse. It suddenly seemed like it might be possible! Next stop was the financial information.  Things were definitely looking up! It looked tight, but we might be able to make it. Next was the meeting with the real estate appraiser. Again, happy news.  Our house shows well, especially with all the renovations we have done over the last couple of years, and  it shouldn’t be difficult to sell.

Next step: visit the area. We did that last month. We were in touch with a real estate agent, and picked out 3 homes to look at in Salmon Arm and 3 in Vernon.  We wanted to see what the places in our price range looked like. We weren’t determined to buy anything – it was more of a research trip. However, the moment I walked into the very first house on Sunnybrae Canoe Point Road (what a magical address!) I knew that this was The One. We looked at the others, too, but this home was definitely IT. Our retirement home!

Of course, I’m sure you can guess what happened next, right? Right! We spent the rest of the trip negotiating a sale, which will close in November. A property manager will look after leasing it until we move down.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

And look at the view! 5 minutes walk down the street to the lake and there you are!

 

 

 

 

 

If everything continues to go our way, we’ll be taking early retirement and moving at the end of 2013. Kelly will see his dream of freedom 55 come true.  Cross your fingers that serendipity continues to smile on us!

I know this is supposed to be WIP Wednesday, but I consider this to definately be a creative work in progress, don’t you? LOL! Hop on over to Freshly Pieced to see what everyone else is up to this week. Thanks for visiting!

Sunday Morning daydreaming

One of my favourite Sunday morning things is to sit and daydream on the couch for an hour or so before I start my day. I’ve always done it, but now that I think about it, I realize that it has become a ritual that I’m nearly religious about! Two cups of coffee or tea, house coat, hair uncombed, teeth unbrushed…I sit and let my mind wander freely. Sometimes I browse creative websites and let my mind roam among the images and words of others as though I were in a museum…admiring, enjoying and then moving on to the next.  I walk through dream gardens, dance dream dances, build dream houses and decorate dream rooms.

This morning I’ve taken down a handful of quilting books to browse through. Creating beautiful quilts in my mind. Daydreaming of beautiful fabrics, colours, and patterns.

 

What do you daydream about on Sunday mornings?

WIP Wednesday!

Wow, I haven’t been posting much (at all!) lately. But tomorrow is Work in Progress Wednesday, so I’m going to use that as incentive to get back into the game. Here we go! I’m linking in with Freshly Pieced , so check out what other crafters are up to and leave a note to say hi, eh?

The Treasure Chest BOM for June was the Prickly Pear block. I really liked this one and can easily see an entire quilt made of this block:

 

 

 

 

 

 

And here are all of them together. Only 3 more to go!

 

 

 

 

 

Here’s why I need a new sewing machine…when she’s good she’s very good. When she’s bad she’s awful! It happens more often than I’d like to admit, and makes me afraid to try sewing a skirt or a dress or anything with topstitching. At least with a quilt the mess is hidden on the back and inside the quilt so nobody knows but me.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I’ve made good process on the hand work in Nora’s quilt. I took a picture of the back because I thought the stitching would show up better:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

…and the June In Colour Order block was diamonds. I can see an entire quilt from this one, too:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

And here’s the fabric for my next project. Aren’t the colours gorgeous? It’s a Tonga Treat called “Lemonade.”  I love it!

 

 

 

 

Happy sewing!